Ok. This time, I tried a little harder. And I got a little further in the process of actually getting there. But the [huge] introverted monster in me reared its head and pretty much froze me up. Better luck next week.

AAAHHH! Not again. At first I thought that the power outages had fried my firewire enclosure (since everytime I plugged it in, it froze my computer, DOH!). So, I simply plugged the drive in directly. And that worked, but I started to see some errors, and checked the speed. It was excruciatingly slow. So, I’m in another mad dash to backup my data. And some of it I’m really doing to need here pretty soon. Looks like I’ll be in the market for some more disk space sooner than I had planned. Especially since I just bought that new drive… I really need to look at some long term solutions, but I’m afraid that they aren’t going to be cheap. But I’m tired of this crap! Man, so little money, and so much stuff to buy…

I usually don’t do these, but I couldn’t resist this one.

Oops… I started watching The West Wing (big surprise, right?)… and then I’m in the middle of a huge thing between seasons 5 and 6, and I can’t seem to stop… :) It’s not going to be a good morning in just a few hours. Oh, and I really should have secured a girlfriend before I left Texas.

Well, it’s official. 150 minutes over for last month. Makes my bill a cool ~$110 instead of its normal ~$40. Ouch. Oh, and I guess that I’m just like everybody else and receiving text messages on my phone cost me $0.10. Oh well, at least I haven’t used them a lot…

I don’t know what your motivation is for going or not going to Church on Sunday mornings. For so long, I have felt things like obligation, duty, and guilt. Three things that shouldn’t be involved in this process. Yeah, so I didn’t go to church today. And, it doesn’t mean that I’m not going to go at all while I’m out here. It just means that I’m going to “take some time off”. I’ve been surrounded by so many Christians and have been in such a Christian environment (since I spend so much time at Wesley… or did at least). And this was definitely one of the things that I have worried about ever since… forever. I have known that it could be a huge struggle when I finally moved out of College Station. I just need some time off. Some time to get back to where I want to go to Church, and hang out with people who, at their core, are really just like me. And, I’m not saying that I’m just going to try and be friends with people at work. I should be, and will be. But the thing is that this is probably going to be really the first time in my life where I’m not going to be in a place completely surrounded by Christians. This is something that I have felt that I have really missed the boat on. For too long I have not been around any non-Christians. So, now is the time… but then again, how can I minister if I’m not doing what I am supposed to be doing in the first place, e.g. going to Church.

I just long for the times when I wasn’t so engrossed in everything that is Church. I want to come to a place where I can enjoy it. Where I can just go and not have to do anything. I long to long for God. And I don’t think that going out of obligation is going to do it for me. I need to remember what it’s like to be away. To not really be surrounded by people that love you. To not be surrounded by people who support you. I need to rely on God. I need to remember what that’s like. And I don’t think that I can get to that point if I just go back to what I’ve been doing for what seems like forever and faking it until I make it. Well, I’m tired of that. I need to really make it. I need to feel whatever it is that I need to feel so that I’ll come crawling back. I need renewal. And hopefully I’m not being lured into some trap. Hopefully I’m not shooting myself in the foot on this one.

Yay for Rachel and tiny, late-night DP. *cough*jennifer*cough* She and Cole bought me some, and I’ve found an excellent use for them when I know that there is like no way that I’ll finish one at like midnight.

I figure that I might as well go ahead and maybe try and head off some of the more common questions that I seem to be getting.

We got here fine. We stayed in Birmingham along the way to break up the trip some. Atlanta isn’t too bad. Lots of traffic, it seems. I will be starting work on Monday. I bought a washer, dryer, and microwave at stupid Sears. Spent too much money… Then tried to open a bank account at bank o’ america, but missed it by like 30 minutes. So, I guess that I’ll have to wake up early on Monday to try and get that squared away. We pretty much got everything up the one flight of stairs in about an hour. The only things left were the couch, tv stand, and tv. We rested a little while, and then we carried them. So, total time was about 2 hrs. Then pretty much the rest of the day to take stuff out of boxes and setup stuff. After the guy called me about the intraweb here, I figured it out, and had it up and running in not too much time. I had to get around some stupid guy’s rogue DHCP server to get a real ip. But I did, so no worries.

Warning: emo ahead…

I don’t know if you’ve ever had to leave a place that was more home to you than you’ve ever known, only to move to a new place where you know no one and have no friends.

Have you ever expected yourself to feel a certain way, only to not allow yourself to actually feel that way, because of that expectation? Like you know how you’re supposed to feel, but then don’t really want to feel that way; so you don’t let yourself.

Man, feelings suck.

Here’s the link for everybody for the 37 (thirty-seven) minute song by Callum and Marcus. Recorded by yours truly…

http://chobas.com/37_min_song.mp3